grumpy but feeling the love

turns out i am not the strong optimistic type :)I am grumpy! I am tired! and for 5 days all i felt was so sick. I felt more like myself today, my nausea is mostly gone. I have had a hard time sleeping so after this I am going to bed. For all the crappy feelings i have i also am overwhelmed by the love and kindness being sent my way. It's a strange privilege to see how many people are in your corner. i don't mean to sound morbid but its almost living out your own funeral. Not quite to that extreme but really everyone I know has taken time to say or do something nice for me. I feel so special! (And glad i've been an overall good person)Thank you everyone for the emails, texts, cards, gifts,visits, meals, flowers, hugs, prayers and support. i really love all the attention :)