the beginning

Cancer?! That's crazy!! As I write this on April 23 this feels like years ago already. In my head I have grieved and moved on. I have told my family and closest friends, watched the fear set in and hoped they could see that I really am ok. I've been spoiled rotten, shared the news, talked about it a lot!!, canceled our Disneyland trip, cut my hair off(more about that later) and now I feel like I am moving on. ha! I still have to find out the stage and start treatment. Isn't this cancer gone yet?!! Here's the back story~ It all started on Sunday March 24, I was enjoying a day at the park with my kids and our friends. I noticed some chest pain when I took a deep breath, the next morning I felt a lump in my neck. The lump felt huge, like a large egg just above my left collarbone. I called the doctor immediately and made an appointment for the next morning. On Tuesday march 26 they doc ordered a ultrasound of my neck and a chest x-ray. The great doctor told me that morning that she believed I have Lymphoma and scheduled a CT scan for the next day(Wed 3/27). At this point I knew I had Lymphoma, I could tell by the way the doctor was talking to me. Thursday 3/28 I took the kids to Wacky Tacky to play, they were on spring break. My head had been spinning for the past 2 days, I had dropped the bomb and told a few people and done a little research. I got two calls while the kids played, one from my doctor with CT scan results and one from cancer center to schedule an appt with the surgeon for the biopsy to find out what type of Lymphoma and an appt with a medical oncologist. I became overwhelmed and then took a very deep breath! I am comforted by 2 things: I have spoken with 3 people that had Hodgkins Lymphoma and they all did well through chemo and were happy and healthy today. And 2 I trust God and I embrace the plan he has for my life! I will lean on him in this journey. "For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, do not fear; I will help you" Isaiah 41:13 This pic is of the lump, its on the right. Hard to see but worth putting up because of Owen's photo bomb!!